MY NEW YEAR’S EXPERIENCE – 11

An old mindset came to visit 

It has become clear to me that old errors of belief can linger for a long time in the shadows of our mind. I found that I had not yet been completely healed of all errors of belief.

Long ago I was a Christian minister, and though I was quite liberal in many beliefs, there were areas where I had not broken loose of what was a fear-based system. From a child I lived with the image of separation – separation from love and acceptance. Perhaps a case can be presented that I became a Christian minister because I was seeking love and acceptance. Always there loomed the possibility that I was not accepted, and that I was separate from God and His love.

In a recent experience I discovered that the grip of a fear-based system still existed in hallways of my mind. I came across these hidden hallways by reading a book. (If you re-read episode #3 of my New Year’s Experience you will see that the book is introduced there.)

Glenn Kleier’s novel, The Knowledge of Good & Evil, is the gift that helped me to see buried crevices where errors of old beliefs still lingered. An old mindset was uncovered waiting to be completely eradicated.

In graphic images Kleier paints a vivid picture in his book of my old mindset. Separation was clearly seen in the scenes of hell where individuals had no recourse to change and progress to higher realms of happiness and beauty. Mercy was absent in hell. And Kleier portrays God as somehow helpless to extend His love to the depths of hell.

Thus, my New Year’s Eve experience of pain and suffering was a picture of my old mindset in the process of being healed. Separation is not just an illusion; it is a fact of our own creation. Love is always present, and the possibility of change always available – yet, unhealed beliefs cannot see it or experience it, and errors of belief have the power to blind us to the existence of love. Hell is real, but it is never permanent. We can change. It may be difficult but it does happen. We can be changed by love.

The rather rapid healing that I experienced following a night of agony is proof to me of the presence of love, and the power of love to change even deeply hidden errors of belief.

Old mindsets disappear in the experience of love – God’s great love.

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To be continued ….

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