A Pause

Dear readers and friends,

I am pausing for a period of time, and may or may not contribute more to this ongoing saga of my New Year's Experience.

Writing does continue, but not for publication.

I do have a little news to share. It is possible that the material in this blog will be used as part of the content of a new book. Just to give you a hint, I had an experience Sunday that may be the 'push' that I need to proceed with a more serious effort to write a new book.

This is a day-to-day experience, so you may want to drop by here every so often to see what is happening.

Some readers have written to me in private and asked about my health. All appears to be OK; even my tooth appears to be alright. Of course, as we all know all this can change nearly instantaneously.

And regarding my financial situation, a kind benefactor has come to the rescue and now I and my family live with less stress in this regard.

Until I return with more news, may you be well and happy.

With love to all,

Joseph 

MY NEW YEAR’S EXPERIENCE – 13

A New Chapter


If this were a book that I was writing (and it may indeed become a new book!), today I would begin a new chapter.

As I begin to type, frankly, I do not know where I am heading; as I begin I do not know what to write.

I feel that I am in new territory. I begin with this feeling.

When I was younger I hiked a great deal in the several mountain ranges near my home in Tucson (Arizona). Often I ventured on new trails and did not know what I would see and how difficult or easy the trail might be.

I remember one day when I set out to hike that it was early morning. It was daylight, but the sun was not yet visible. The trail was new to me. As I walked it meandered slowly but continually upward and sometimes along rugged terrain where the trail became almost indistinguishable among the rocks. All day I hiked; I had water and food, but I ventured too far and nearly did not make it back to my truck before dark.

Thus this morning I ask: Where am I going today on this trail that I have called My New year’s Experience? Will I get lost in my words and provide only confusion to those who may be reading this?

I have titled today’s writing “a new chapter.” A new chapter means a new chapter in my life. What does this invoke to write that I am to begin a new chapter in my life? Isn’t this supposed to happen only to younger people, and not to a man who will soon be 77? Is this true?

And a thought immediately popped into my head … could it be that I really will soon transition to a new life in the spirit world? Could it be? Is this my new chapter?

Possibly, this is true – and I will soon enough find out. And so will my readers, in one way or another.

But until that glorious day arrives when I pass into the greater life awaiting me, I will continue to write about a new chapter in this life that I feel awaits me today.

Before I close my writing for today, I want to share a dream that I had early this morning.

I awoke from a dream that had both inspiring aspects and troubling aspects. The inspiring part of the dream was that I saw myself involved in a beautiful situation that appeared to be a new school environment. I felt happy to be there and particularly with the people that I was with. When it was time to leave, I headed to a gathering in an amphitheater in a beautiful park, and yet on the way I got sidetracked within a huge natural setting for large animals, like elephants and tigers and others. I felt safe until I saw a rhinoceros looking straight at me and pawing the ground, poised and ready to charge. The only way out was to climb a steep sandy hill. I started to climb but had great difficulty; and the charging rhino came closer. This dream ended with me successfully inching over the crest of the sand dune.

Strangely, in the dream I was holding a book; it was old and tattered. It had a homemade cover; the cover was yellow and had a title written by hand, and the title was Canon.

I am beginning to see that the two are related; that is, my telling of my experiences hiking mountain trails, and sharing the dream that I had this morning.

To me the meaning is this: As I begin a new chapter in my life, I have in front of me wonderful experiences awaiting me, but there will also be difficulties, even dangerous sidetracks … yet in the end I will be safe.

But what about the book that I was carrying, the book with the title Canon? What does this mean?

My immediate thought it that it is a message to me that I will need to learn how to discard additional old baggage. I did not have this book in my hand while I was within the environment of the new school. I saw it in my hand only during the time that I was sidetracked in the environment with the animals, and particularly with the rhinoceros.
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To be continued ….

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MY NEW YEAR’S EXPERIENCE – 12

New School and New Teachers

Yesterday I mentioned an old mind-set that needed to be removed from my soul. The picture of a bad tooth infecting my entire body is really a graphic picture of the condition of my soul. One unhealed error in the soul can have that kind of affect on the body.

Today I wish to shift direction and introduce the subject of a new school and new teachers. I was introduced to this subject 6 years ago, but hints of the existence of this new school were everywhere since my early childhood – only the fact is that the schools and colleges and universities and seminaries of our world had (and has) the effect of silencing this other school, the new school.

What is the new school with the new teachers? Where is it? And who are the new teachers?

The school that I am referring to exists in another world, the other world, the world unseen, the spirit world. And the teachers are those who once were mortal, and who are now living in the spirit world.

We have a huge assembly of such teachers; and I am not pointing to history books found in libraries of our physical world. I am pointing to individuals who upon their death, passed into a finer and more excellent world, and would love nothing better than to come and teach us about their new existence in their new world.

They who are now spirit are our greatest teachers – or can be if we will allow it. They wait to teach us the truths of our human existence, yet are held away and denied their voice. We are afraid, terrified that devils and demons will come to deceive us and destroy our existence on earth. What we are blind to see is that we ourselves are destroying our own existence!

There exists for us who are still on earth the possibility of a great change, a change that would more closely approximate and reflect the pure and lovely existence that our loved ones are presently experiencing in the spirit world. They want to help us; will we allow new teachers into our lives?

Will we allow the voices of our ancestors to come and teach us? Will we allow great teachers in our human history to return and teach us once again from the vantage point of their new life in the spirit world?

The experiences on New Year’s Eve awakened me to the reality of this new school with new teachers.

I was faced with a choice: Do I want to return to the old mind-set, or do I desire to move ahead into a deeper relationship with teachers from the spirit world?

Which will it be – the old school and old paradigms, or the new school with limitless growth and expansion and development?

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To be continued ….

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MY NEW YEAR’S EXPERIENCE – 11

An old mindset came to visit 

It has become clear to me that old errors of belief can linger for a long time in the shadows of our mind. I found that I had not yet been completely healed of all errors of belief.

Long ago I was a Christian minister, and though I was quite liberal in many beliefs, there were areas where I had not broken loose of what was a fear-based system. From a child I lived with the image of separation – separation from love and acceptance. Perhaps a case can be presented that I became a Christian minister because I was seeking love and acceptance. Always there loomed the possibility that I was not accepted, and that I was separate from God and His love.

In a recent experience I discovered that the grip of a fear-based system still existed in hallways of my mind. I came across these hidden hallways by reading a book. (If you re-read episode #3 of my New Year’s Experience you will see that the book is introduced there.)

Glenn Kleier’s novel, The Knowledge of Good & Evil, is the gift that helped me to see buried crevices where errors of old beliefs still lingered. An old mindset was uncovered waiting to be completely eradicated.

In graphic images Kleier paints a vivid picture in his book of my old mindset. Separation was clearly seen in the scenes of hell where individuals had no recourse to change and progress to higher realms of happiness and beauty. Mercy was absent in hell. And Kleier portrays God as somehow helpless to extend His love to the depths of hell.

Thus, my New Year’s Eve experience of pain and suffering was a picture of my old mindset in the process of being healed. Separation is not just an illusion; it is a fact of our own creation. Love is always present, and the possibility of change always available – yet, unhealed beliefs cannot see it or experience it, and errors of belief have the power to blind us to the existence of love. Hell is real, but it is never permanent. We can change. It may be difficult but it does happen. We can be changed by love.

The rather rapid healing that I experienced following a night of agony is proof to me of the presence of love, and the power of love to change even deeply hidden errors of belief.

Old mindsets disappear in the experience of love – God’s great love.

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To be continued ….

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MY NEW YEAR’S EXPERIENCE – 10

Change through Love

Today when I began to write I had the idea to make the title “I am not immune.”

On one level of understanding the experience that I had on New Year’s Eve is because I am not immune. I am not immune to such things as tooth aches; nor am I immune to the deterioration of the physical body. I am not immune to the death of my body. One day I will die. I am not immune.

But to say that I am not immune is not to tell the whole story. The rest of the story is that there is something much greater happening in my life. The fact is I am much more than I presently realize. I am a child of God and I am constantly being changed through a process of God’s love.

Though it is true that it is God’s love that is changing me, nonetheless, it is completely dependent upon me and my choice. To be changed through love – the highest love – is not automatic. It involves willingness and openness to be changed by love. To be changed through love requires a desire and longing to be changed.

We are not creatures without free will. Free will is one of the greatest things about us. When we look around us and see the pain and suffering of humanity, we like to place the blame on God, that He made an imperfect world. Closer to the truth is that we are seeing man’s creation and expressions of our free will.

God’s great love can and will change us and our world, that is, if we desire it. It is our free will to invite change, or to reject it. Yes, we can and often do reject love.

I feel personally responsible for what happened to me on New Year’s Eve. Yes, it is true that I am not immune to the death of the body; but I no longer believe that I have to die through a process of pain and agony such as I experienced New Year’s Eve. There is a better way. It is the way of my willingness to be changed through love.

So once again I ask: If I believe in being changed through love, how then did I get myself into the situation I found myself in New Year’s Eve?

I keep dancing around the answer, and I realize this. Be patience, dear reader. Eventually I will get there.

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To be continued ….

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MY NEW YEAR’S EXPERIENCE – 9

You are more than you realize

You have more of love – the Divine Love – in your soul than you realize!

As you know this love is the ingredient in your soul to change its very quality by the very infusion of the substance of the Father’s Great Soul. It is the only thing that can change your soul as it has existed since its creation.

You are a perfect child of God, and yet at times this slips from your consciousness, and becoming buried you tend to forget who you are – a beloved child of God.

Thus, you have need of reminding that you are more than you realize, and that you have more of the love in your soul than you realize!

Your soul possesses power to cause undesirable spirit influence to leave you. Yet when you are in a state of forgetting who you are, these lower spirits are able to come to you and as it were cover you with a cloud, having the result that you think you are powerless and cannot rise above their evil influences.

Remember, you have won the battle of the soul and have come out the victor.

Lift your drooping head and stand tall as a beloved child of God, for this you are.

Grasp the meaning of this and in the future, no matter how discouraged you may feel or how much your mentality may suggest the existence of things in you that are injuring your soul, or taking from it the presence of possession of God’s Great Love, believe what you have been told and experienced, you have fought the battle of the soul and won.

Love is who you really are, and this love is yours and cannot be taken from you by the wiles of lower spirits.

[A portion of the above is adapted from a message by John, the Apostle of Jesus, received by James Padgett on November 4th, 1916.]
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To be continued ....

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MY NEW YEAR’S EXPERIENCE – 8

The Devil made me do it?

It may be a shock for some people to read this, but there is no Satan and no Devil – evil spirits, yes, but no entity called Satan or the Devil!

We are responsible for what we do and don’t do, for good or for evil.

Here I quote what one individual wrote about this. The author is a woman; her name is Helen. She wrote:

While, in many instances, the evil spirits influence mortals in their thoughts and actions, yet this is not always the case and it will not do for mortals to think so.

Men are not the mere pliant tools (or subjects) of these evil spirits, but are persons with free wills, controlled by their own appetites, and for them to believe that all their evil acts are the results of the influence of these evil spirits would place them in a very subservient and deplorable condition, and at the same time retard the development of themselves by their own thoughts and acts.

No, the evil spirits are always working evil, but all the thoughts and desires that mortals have and do, are not the results of the influence of these spirits.

Man must realize that in himself is the cause of his own evil thoughts and deeds, though increased by the influence of these spirits, and that he must master these thoughts that he be able to drive them from him and overcome them by thoughts of a different and higher nature.

It will not do for men to think that they are wicked only because of the influence of the evil spirits, for to think so would retard their development and at the same time take from them a realization of their own responsibility.

And on the other hand, the source of good thoughts is within themselves, and if they will only seek for this source they will be able to progress in their moral conditions; and while the good spirits can and do help them, yet primarily men must help themselves from the good that is within them.

Remember this, that whatever of evil is displayed or gives evidence of the soul being possessed by it, yet within themselves is the power to overcome and cause its eradication. I mean that men must make the effort … realize that they are masters of good and evil.

[Source: http://new-birth.net/tgrabjvol2/minor119.htm]

So, once again I ask: Why did I experience a night of hell? What did I do or not do that brought upon me such a hellish night on New Year’s Eve? In what way am I alone responsible for what happened? And why did I not die? Why did I live to tell my story?
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To be continued …

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